I Open My Heart
by Nicholas de
Castella
We are conceived with our hearts more or
less open. By this I mean that we are relatively
connected to the truth of our being, to our source, to
the oneness with all things, to our innate beauty, to
love. Our feelings flow through our bodies relatively
freely. Feelings are our life-force, our animation, they
provide us with personal power and create the 'color' in
our life,
From the moment of conception on we
exist in the physical world, learning (making decisions),
taking on the values, including which emotions are 'good'
and 'bad'.
'Good' emotions are generally those of
joy and peace, 'bad' emotions are generally those of
sadness, anger, and fear. When we experience 'bad'
emotions there is a natural tendency to resist their
natural course of flow. This resistance is PAIN. Sadness,
anger, and fear are not painful emotions, it is making
them (and us) wrong and trying to suppress them that is
painful. When we allow ourselves to freely express our
feelings they can flow through us quite gently and
harmoniously .
To release the pain in our lives we need
to accept all our feelings as valid and 'real' parts of
ourselves, to stop judging some emotions as 'good' and
others as 'bad'. We need to practise accepting, letting
go, allowing, surrendering...
Sadness is caused by closing off our
heart. It occurs in the forgetting of who we really,
really are our true, magnificent, divine selves. It is
the 'empty' space between the smallness of the
limitations that we have 'bought' into and the vastness
of our being. We feel sadness when we have decided that
we are anything other than perfect right now.
When we experience sadness we can either
express it and allow our hearts to open a little bit more
for the experience, or suppress it and close our hearts
down a little. When we make it wrong or bad, we tend to
suppress it, to pull back, to hold on,and as a result it
becomes painful, ugly, and makes life a struggle. As we
suppress (close our hearts) feelings we judge as 'bad' we
also lose touch with the ones we judge 'good' (joy, peace
and love).
When we accept our sadness as OK, we
allow it to flow through us. The flowing of emotion
through us has the effect of opening our hearts up again,
dissolving the illusion of finiteness and seperation. We
start to feel all our feelings more vividly, we expand
our life force,our power and open up our connection to
eternal oneness, to feeling the 'truth' of our being;
love, joy and peace
If my love (acceptance) of someone is
rejected then this does not affect my capacity to love
them unless I decide that I am less worthwhile (I love
myself less) and do not express this sadness. I close
down the flow of love through my heart.
If I allow myself to grieve for my
sadness, my heart opens. The experience has now led to a
positive contribution to my personal growth and
expansion. As a result of opening my heart I am now able
to love, more compassionately, more openly, and more
fully.
Awaken to the knowledge that ;
I am the creator,
I am the source of love in my life,
My self image is based on what I am, not what I
do
I open my heart to love
I am LOVE